maggie's musings

03.31.2026 (tue)

I will not lie, finances are complicated to manage if you have no idea what you’re doing. Paying for bills, rent, and hobbies feels as if a weight is on you and your only option is to continue working like a mule being beat. Yet I want to do this and I want to do that. All this in order to gain a sense of freedom you may never achieve. A 9-5 just won’t do it for me. I must learn how to overcome the system and make myself someone experienced in the work field yet someone who knows to take action. How difficult could that possibly be.. Very. Without any autonomy, I feel trapped, even if the decisions are mine to make. I do not wish to live by my parents’ nickel and dime. As I’ve said before, no child should want to. But how? I wonder if I’ll ever break out of this cycle of “I want to make change” to “I don’t know how to”. No more wondering, I must learn how to do it. I would like to be a someone, but in order to be a someone, I must DO something. It is all in the mindset. I must change my mindset to think like those who achieve highly in order to become someone who achieves highly. Perhaps my only path forward is to start a corporate job while doing a side hustle on something I’m passionate about. And later making my side hustle my main source of income while having all these other little side hustles. Yet, I’m still in college so this isn’t (technically) something I need to be worried about yet. But I am, because I want to pay my parents back for all they’ve invested in me. I do not want to let them down and I want to make them proud. I don’t believe myself clever enough to come up with a startup idea on my own. Perhaps I should introduce myself to new people and surroundings. More to come.