maggie's musings

02.15.2026 (sun)

Applying to different opportunities, figuring out housing and meal plans for next semester, managing my academic life, being an active member in the multiple clubs I’m in, volunteering myself to other events, balancing my health with my social life, networking with professionals, actually taking good care of myself.. It drains me a lot more than I thought it would to juggle everything around but I feel energized when I feel accomplished. Midterms have just passed by, not my best grades but I’ve passed (phew, thank god). Yet, I’ve booked up my calendar once again.

February has been quite a busy month and it’s only been 2 weeks in. Surelyyy I can manage to the next month without neglecting myself? I find that I tend to put my health in last priority when I’m working on finding my career. Is that just me? Perhaps I feel the urge to do so much because I want to be someone. Surely I’m not the only one who feels this way. I never seem to be able to rest unless I schedule that out for myself. But even if I’ve scheduled it, I tend to do assignments during my “rest” period. I need to establish my non-negotiables.

Balancing my life is something I’ve always struggled with. It has gotten much better but then it fades from time to time. Last semester, I was doing well until the very end of the semester where I started neglecting myself once again. This pattern seriously throws me off and I wish to find the root cause soon. My birthday is soon too, but I’ve given up on planning anything. Birthdays and holidays no longer give me the same excitement as they once did if I’m the one planning it. It’s just another day, another year to my age. I’ve felt super overwhelmed in the past month and I think it’s time to breathe. I wish luck to those who feel anything similar to how I feel.